I remember last year In this same month. I was change to new firm to continue my career. Who know nightmare come to me and I was very suffer of those few passing months.
After few months, I was resign and change to commercial to find a stable working life. Who know Now my nightmare come to find me too.
I don't know how to manage my stress to get away from me. I really don't know i can cope the work or not or this industry really suitable me or not? This moment I am lost! From i primary school, I was very clear what i want and where i should go. But become the age getting elder , I getting more and more and this nightmare come to me. Because i want more and more and request myself to the level is unlimited.
Now i am lost and totally Lost! I hate my self why need look so clear from the beginning~ why need so early to think about the future?!
Sometime I was jealous those people who are able to go all the way long without look clear without thinking.. Just go ahead to do what they want to do at that moment.. I know i limit myself too much.
My bf always tell me to think positive.. but i never follow because i was feel that once you think positive... I never to take care the negative side. I never have come out the back up plan for such possible situation.
But, Now i need to learn how to be positive. It hard to me...
